Slow response

Funny that I was worried about hyperstimulation and here I am worried about slow/poor response. Today was my 2nd follie check (follicle) and blood work after starting stims. First I went to the accupuncturist. He had me lie on my stomach and put the needles in my back and legs and attached them to electricity. He said it would "vibrate" the needles but it was really more like being gently electrocuted. :-P It didn't hurt per se, but it wasn't a comfortable feeling and took some getting used to! It wasn't very relaxing and cost a bit more money, so I hope it works!

Then I went straight to the RE's office (Dr. Sunshine). Blood taken, and then the u/s. This time there was a little action - I had a 9mm follie and two 11mm follies on the right, and nothing really on the left (a few small ones about a 5, which some drs don't even measure). This is really a bummer, and even Dr. Sunshine was disappointed and started assuring me that he would help us with the next round to make sure we got donated meds. Next round?! I smiled and said, "but this time is going to work" to which he said yes, we aren't out of the game yet. But yeah it rocked me a bit to have Dr. Sunshine get a little cloudy on me. :(

When the nurse called back to give me the results of the blood work I was in a canyon that doesn't get cell service, and the office was closed when I got back out so I couldn't find out what my estrogen was. However, she said he doesn't need to see me again until Friday rather than Thursday as originally planned. Basically they aren't worried anything big is going to happen in a couple of days at the rate things are going for me.

I was really upset earlier today and had a headache on top of it all (I never get them!) and I just felt broke and bummed and totally out of sorts. I went to the barn because I had plans to ride with a friend/client - which I did... and it was great that I rode, Jordan was a really good boy and helped clear my head. I had to deal with some client crap while I was there when I really just wanted to have a true afternoon off, but that's the way it goes... When I got home and saw Mario (we were apart all day) he gave me some pizza and a couple good hugs.

This IVF / IF journey is definitely one that requires you take it one single step at a time. You can make yourself crazy over every little thing, and the anxiety, the expense, the hopes/wishes/dreams, lack of sleep, the hormones ~ all make you feel nuttier than usual.

Onward!