Our orange tree nearly died from some kind of bug and has been making a slow comeback for the last year or so. There is one orange on the whole tree at the moment... I think it's so pretty, that little round orange globe hanging on the tree like an ornament!Yesterday (Friday) I called Dr. Sunshine's office because we had run out of progesterone shot needles. I wanted to know if we could pick them up locally, but they said why don't you just come down and get some needles and your beta draw as well... It worked out well since we had the day off, so off we went!
While there, the nurse said they would like to see my number come in around 150 or higher. We ran some errands and went home to await the call... but when it came in it was a little confusing. The first thing the nurse said was "Your number came back at 540!" I said "Holy crap!!" and she agreed. I was ecstatic. But then she implied there might be a problem and that Dr. Sunshine wanted to talk to me. I asked how it could be a bad thing, and she said "well, just hold your questions for the doctor..." and put me on hold. Mario came running over to the table where I was sitting and we put the phone on speaker.
Dr. Sunshine came on and said that it was very rare to have an initial beta so low as 7.5 not drop off to nothing in a short period of time. The fact that my numbers were doubling every 24 hours was a really good thing, except.... he was concerned it could be ectopic. An ectopic is a pregnancy where the embryo has implanted somewhere other than the uterus, with 98% of those being in the fallopian tubes. Since I don't have tubes, I really had not considered this a risk for me at all, and in fact felt like it was a relief that I uniquely had! (a silver lining of having no tubes) But Dr. Sunshine said I still had 'stumps' remaining (ew) where the tubes had been, and there was a chance that is where the implantation had ocurred. He did say it would be rare and he had not personally seen it, but it could happen, and he also cautioned that he was not certain the pregnancy was viable and that I should not tell people yet. Ugh... too late for that! I told him I couldn't believe that we had somehow gone from not pregnant enough to too pregnant! He sort of seemed to me to be more cautious than usual, and in retrospect I can only imagine it is because I haven't responded as expected to anything all along. From the IUI to OHSS to thinking I had endo to the surgery, tube removal, no endo, poor response to stims, worse response to the increased/different stims the 2nd time, dropping estrogen when it should be rising, really low numbers post transfer, really low initial beta to double fast doubling... ahhhh!
He said the best thing we can do at this point is come in for an ultrasound to make sure the pregnancy is in my uterus where it belongs. That is scheduled for Feb. 2nd. I will be considered 6 weeks pregnant at that point.
After the phone call Mario was really scared. I was - well, I hope it wasn't just freaked out denial, but I felt pretty confident that it's ok. That my baby is where it belongs, in my ute!! And in all honesty, there is nothing I can do at this point. I am working on choosing to say "today I am pregnant, and I love my baby". That was advice from an internet board friend and I thought it was beautiful. :) My baby is supposedly somewhere between the size of a poppyseed and appleseed right now.
It's amazing to me how such a little thing can be causing all of these changes in my body. I am crazy thirsty and craving orange juice. I don't really want sweet things, more salty... Mario says I have a heightened sense of smell. My boobs are ridiculous. lol I'm tired but then when I wake up to go to the bathroom at night, I cannot go back to sleep. I was never a napper before, but I just might become a napper! I get little dizzy spells sometimes, hot flashes, and fullness/crampy sometimes too.
Mario has been so good to me, bringing me drinks and making yummy meals and sending me sweet notes. Between him and my family, I feel so blessed...
We did a Skype with the Bressani's and Mario - finally - opened his Christmas present from them. It was a Diaper Dude! We had gotten one for them when they were expecting a few years ago, it's basically a manly diaper bag. :) They picked up the tradition and got one for Dave & Kim and Jeromy & Stephanie. Mario's was grey with pin striping - he loves it. Thank you again you brave, believer Bressanis!!!!
So that's my update. Today I am pregnant. I love my baby.
:)
While there, the nurse said they would like to see my number come in around 150 or higher. We ran some errands and went home to await the call... but when it came in it was a little confusing. The first thing the nurse said was "Your number came back at 540!" I said "Holy crap!!" and she agreed. I was ecstatic. But then she implied there might be a problem and that Dr. Sunshine wanted to talk to me. I asked how it could be a bad thing, and she said "well, just hold your questions for the doctor..." and put me on hold. Mario came running over to the table where I was sitting and we put the phone on speaker.
Dr. Sunshine came on and said that it was very rare to have an initial beta so low as 7.5 not drop off to nothing in a short period of time. The fact that my numbers were doubling every 24 hours was a really good thing, except.... he was concerned it could be ectopic. An ectopic is a pregnancy where the embryo has implanted somewhere other than the uterus, with 98% of those being in the fallopian tubes. Since I don't have tubes, I really had not considered this a risk for me at all, and in fact felt like it was a relief that I uniquely had! (a silver lining of having no tubes) But Dr. Sunshine said I still had 'stumps' remaining (ew) where the tubes had been, and there was a chance that is where the implantation had ocurred. He did say it would be rare and he had not personally seen it, but it could happen, and he also cautioned that he was not certain the pregnancy was viable and that I should not tell people yet. Ugh... too late for that! I told him I couldn't believe that we had somehow gone from not pregnant enough to too pregnant! He sort of seemed to me to be more cautious than usual, and in retrospect I can only imagine it is because I haven't responded as expected to anything all along. From the IUI to OHSS to thinking I had endo to the surgery, tube removal, no endo, poor response to stims, worse response to the increased/different stims the 2nd time, dropping estrogen when it should be rising, really low numbers post transfer, really low initial beta to double fast doubling... ahhhh!
He said the best thing we can do at this point is come in for an ultrasound to make sure the pregnancy is in my uterus where it belongs. That is scheduled for Feb. 2nd. I will be considered 6 weeks pregnant at that point.
After the phone call Mario was really scared. I was - well, I hope it wasn't just freaked out denial, but I felt pretty confident that it's ok. That my baby is where it belongs, in my ute!! And in all honesty, there is nothing I can do at this point. I am working on choosing to say "today I am pregnant, and I love my baby". That was advice from an internet board friend and I thought it was beautiful. :) My baby is supposedly somewhere between the size of a poppyseed and appleseed right now.
It's amazing to me how such a little thing can be causing all of these changes in my body. I am crazy thirsty and craving orange juice. I don't really want sweet things, more salty... Mario says I have a heightened sense of smell. My boobs are ridiculous. lol I'm tired but then when I wake up to go to the bathroom at night, I cannot go back to sleep. I was never a napper before, but I just might become a napper! I get little dizzy spells sometimes, hot flashes, and fullness/crampy sometimes too.
Mario has been so good to me, bringing me drinks and making yummy meals and sending me sweet notes. Between him and my family, I feel so blessed...
We did a Skype with the Bressani's and Mario - finally - opened his Christmas present from them. It was a Diaper Dude! We had gotten one for them when they were expecting a few years ago, it's basically a manly diaper bag. :) They picked up the tradition and got one for Dave & Kim and Jeromy & Stephanie. Mario's was grey with pin striping - he loves it. Thank you again you brave, believer Bressanis!!!!
So that's my update. Today I am pregnant. I love my baby.
:)
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What does he say about the number being related to multiples? Just trying to make sense of it...My #'s were never that low with jack or the twins but...maybe that is what could be? grasping at straws for you!!! Hugs!!
He hasn't mentioned anything about multiples, I think it's pretty unlikely - my 540 number for days past transfer is low normal (median on betabase.com for yesterday was like 1700). I think it's just the rate of rise rather than the actual number that is suprising and concerning him... but it's fine I tell ya :)
We love you too Baby, and Mama!! And Dada!!! XOXOXOXO
Oh, Sossity and Mario....I checked for an update yesterday and was concerned that there wasn't one. Happy it's there now, and I'll go for the "today I'm pregnant and grateful" mode, which is such a fabulous, present place to remain each and every day!!
Love you dearly! Auntie Nanny
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