Signs...

Yesterday I made a quick trip to the grocery store. As I was cutting through the card aisle on my way to the refrigerated area, I felt like I should look at the cards... I am always on the lookout for a sign ... some indication on the direction things are going. When every moment is spent wondering and every little twinge or twang makes you wonder, I gotta tell you, even the tiniest sign is greeted with huge relief and huge welcome! So I glance over at the boxes of thank you cards, thinking that would be the place I might see something... I continue slowly walking, can't help but feel silly looking for a sign from the heavens, under the fluorescent lights of the aisles of Ralph's! As I am about to turn my head away and redirect my energy towards fat free sour cream, my eyes fall on the image below...

I literally laughed out loud when I realized -- well, yes, that's a yellow bird!!! I think the universe has a sense of humor. Or I am now completely batshit crazy. Or both! ;-P

I finish my shopping and walk outside to be greeted by a really gorgeous early evening. It's the cusp of dusk and evening, I love this time of day!! The sky is a beautiful blue fading into the pale yellow of the sunset, a couple of stars are out, and the air smelled so good... a mixture of fresh air and cooking food from the handful of local restaurants. I took a deep breath as I wheeled the cart to the car, and I couldn't help but say a little prayer "Please God, let this have worked". I literally had no sooner said this prayer in my mind, when my eyes fell on the license plate frame in the car I am passing by in the lot. It said, "Our God is an awesome God"! It was made ever more meaningful by a phone call I had gotten from my Aunt Elaine telling me one of her favorite quotes from the bible, about nothing being too wonderful for God. I really liked the hope and positivity, the abundance, in that sentiment...

I started to cry ... I do that a lot these days, I would say it's pretty much a daily occurence that I blame on the estrogen patches and progesterone shots. :) I said another little prayer, this time of gratitude, before driving home.

Today we went into Dr. Sunshine's office to get more patches (donated back to the office by a woman who just had a succesful CVS (like an amniocentisis), which I take as another good sign!) and another bottle of that lovely progesterone. The butt shots are going ok - they don't hurt going in hardly at all, but the bruisy feeling in my rump is starting to build up a little bit. It's ok though, I know it's important with my luteal phase defect, and it's for a good cause!