Yellow bird in the grass about 5 ft from where we were trimming yesterday My previous beta was 1300. My last beta was 1700. Yes... it went UP. :( UGH!!!
Dr. Sunshine called me to discuss the situation and said that there must be some placental tissue remaining, which is causing my body to continue to think it's pregnant. He said he was surprised and it's not common. I laughed sadly and said "I'm not surprised at all!" to which he conceded, "yes, you have experienced some 1% situations"...
He wants to bring me in for some procedure which essentially disturbs the lining and encourages things to (continue to) miscarry. If that doesn't work, then he said he would try methotrexate, a drug used to induce miscarriage or abortion. Depending on how our schedules work, I will go in today or tomorrow for the procedure.
Like the title says, this feels like salt in the wound. I can't truly feel like we have moved through this emotionally when I haven't gotten through it physically. It feels extra unfair and mean. And it makes me sad to think my body just can't give up the dream so to speak. At this point, I just want this all to be over, to be behind us, so we can actually move on and not feel we are in this shitty ironic limbo of being "pregnant".
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I don't understand why. But I hope one day down the road it will all make sense. I'm so sorry. What a terrible, sad situation. Please let me know when you go in. We love you. xoxoxox
I wish the words were there, but I have none...sending you HUGE hugs and prayers!! Love ya!
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